Autumn Time

The Vision is going forth!! Life has presented opportunities for distraction and refining these past several months and I have opened my heart and soul to Father God for His search light to look deep within and help me recover from wounds and get back the stolen goods. As we all know, Spring or Fall cleaning is necessary in our physical houses and also, our spiritual houses. But after the rugs are shook out and the cupboards cleaned out, it FEELS so much lighter & better! I discovered a wonderful woman of God named Kat Kerr who for many years has been taken by God up to Heaven to see and hear what goes on there. It has been the most amazing thing to listen to her youtube videos and allow the Holy Spirit to minister to me. I have really enjoyed that time so much!! Naomi-Ruth House Project is always on my heart at some level. I am so excited about what God has in store to build a Safe House and refuge for the souls of women & children!! He so loves His women and is tenderly and secretly planning a most wonderful place! FUN is also on His agenda at the Naomi-Ruth House!! Taking time out for FUN is a necessity and I am open to any and all ideas on this subject. I'm thinking, 'Swimming pool' and of course a playground but arts & crafts especially on rainy or too cold for outside days is all part of it. I can't wait to see how it all pans out! Please take a few minutes and ask the Lord how you can bring this big dream to pass for the women & children!! You can be the answer for a woman today by pledging $20 a month toward the care of a single woman or family woman! You send a message here for more information. Bless you so much!

Life is funny...or not...

I think about this blog all the time but so rarely get to visit what with all my other responsibilities....but here I am, FINALLY!! I also think about 'The House' all the time and the women out there somewhere waiting for it to open. They are just living their lives right now, some getting married to Mr. Wonderful and dreaming of their fairy tale future complete with 3 great kids and white picket fence. Or maybe she's more interested in pursuing education and the arts...or maybe she's already homeless and fear is her daily bread. Whoever all these women are, they are waiting. I know what they are waiting for because I've been there and done that. I've had to spend nights in various women's shelters because of domestic abuse. It's no fun, no fun at all! It's scary truth be known..it's scarier when you have little to no support system. The stories are endless but they all have one thing in common. He hits her. He might hit the kids too. But when he hits he always leaves bruises on the body and the heart hurts a little more. Sometimes she fights back to protect herself and hurts him too. But she always ends up worse than him unless a knife or gun is involved. Many women in prison are there because they were tired of being hit. Tired of being called names. Tired of watching him abuse the kids and threaten their lives. When a weapon enters the home, the dynamics totally change. It means someone is going to get seriously hurt or dead. I think back to my last marriage and cringe. I had a christian marriage or so I thought in the beginning. After he brutalized me the first time just six months after our beautiful wedding, I couldn't believe it! He looked like a man possessed, not my sweet loving hubby. He threw me around like a ragdoll and then pushed me so hard and fast I had no time to break the fall with my hands and landed on my jawline. It cracked and I sipped all my meals through a straw for a long time afterward. What hurt most about it was that he did all that to me in front of my sweet innocent five year old son who had never seen violence in his life because I made sure he wouldn't. I will forget his saucer big eyes as he stared at me as I stumbled out of the house to get help. I knew no one in town. He insisted we leave beautiful Naples Florida and drive hundreds of miles away to Dallas Texas because he said GOD told him that's where we belonged. I didn't feel it one bit and told him so. He won and we packed up everything we owned in a old clunker and set forth in obedience to "God". When my neighbors saw me for the first time, I was a wreck. They were a old couple who had lived on that street forever. They were kind to me and convinced me to call the police. My heart was so broken I could hardly breathe. How could my loving husband do something like that to me. I didn't deserve it. Not at all. I knew I should've left him right then and there. To allow someone to get away with abuse, only enables them. But I didn't leave him because three days after he beat me he was arrested for breaking his probation on a old bank robbery he had committed a year before we met. I know, I know...how stupid was I right? I know...and you are right. Suddenly he was gone leaving my sweet little boy fatherless again but at least we were safer. Looking back I now realize he was a narcissist. I seem to attract them as it turns out which is a long story and not for here. Incredibly he convinced me to stay in Dallas in a hubble of a house with vagrants who walked up and down the street high on something or other. It didn't take much to convince me back then because I was in love with him. He had sobbed uncontrollably after beating me the first time and he promised to never do it again. I wanted so badly to believe him but deep inside something had broken, I felt shattered. Yet I have faith that things would work out for him and I. I desperately needed to believe that it really would work out. He was shipped back to Ft. Myers Florida to face charges for breaking probation (he said GOD told him to do it)and ended up serving nine months. My son and I were on our own. I supported my son and I by drumming up some housecleaning accounts around the neighborhood. I cannot even tell you how awful some of those houses were. I worked hard for so pitifully little. But I persisted and time went by. It was all kisses and hugs for a few weeks but he lost his temper and I found myself being slapped and thrown up against the wall. It felt like he gave me a concussion and my vision was off. I noticed drool coming out of my mouth. He left me to take care of myself and didn't return till the next day claiming he slept in his truck. Domestic violence became a way of life for me. He had no accountability to anyone including GOD who he claimed talked to him. As an abused woman who had her brains scrambled too many times I felt confused and scared and alone. This went on the entire awful 10 years of marriage. Abused women need help. They need resources and somewhere to go to be safe. Naomi-Ruth House will take in these women and give them time to heal and see things more clearly. I wished there had been a Naomi-Ruth House in my neighborhood when my husband got heavy handed. There was not and I stayed and dealt with things the best I knew how. Hindsight being 20/20, I wish I could get in the time machine and if I could, I would NEVER have married that monster! NEVER EVER!! But in the process of going through that terrible ordeal for so very long of a time has reaped a good amount of wisdom for other women. I want to be there for others now. To give them an listening ear and a kind heart and a place to call Home for awhile to get her head on right. If you would like to know more about Naomi-Ruth House you can email me at sarongit@yahoo.com. Thank you for taking the time to read this. God Bless!

It will be worth it!!

Wow, what a last few weeks as I've walked seemingly uphill for miles and miles toward that ever glowing light. Admitedly, it seems futile at times. I need help. No, I NEED HELP!!  I cannot, I repeat, CANNOT do this by myself. And because the Lord has told me to do this, I know HE will bring the people and the resources.



We also need people with good hearts to volunteer in the office to handle correspondence on both computer and our 'snail mail' contacts. We will keep you in coffee and hard candy of your choice, just let us know what your sweet tooth likes.

I see a wonderful future for these women who have experienced some of the worst trials and losses you can imagine. From childhoods of sexual abuse to physical abuse to loss of husbands by death or divorce, these women will be coming to a place called Home...quite possibly the first true Home they've ever experienced in their lives.

Thank you for extending your hand to help us create this much needed Home for these women.
God will Bless you many times for it!!

huggs2you@gmail.com or sarongit@yahoo.com and Thank you again!!

Women Weaving our Lives together: Sounds like a great idea really..sounds nice and spiritual and even kind of ideal. But I found out today that things are not going to just snap into place on this deal.
The Naomi-Ruth House is not going to be licensed for medical care services to the elderly. It is specifically designed for gals who are mobile and can self care and contribute to others. It is not a babysitting service or a drop off place.

As things progress along with The Dream, I am both excited and frustrated. My heart is calling out to Father God that His glory be revealed in all this. I am putting it out there on the air waves that we are looking for HELP! Oh Lord but we need Help in every area!!
We need property and house to begin with. A mere write off for the dear family who donates to us! Yes Lord!! And then we need volunteers to do be in place to any rehab work that may be needed.
Furniture for the bedrooms and living room and kitchen.....Rocking chairs for the front porch and flowers planted...
Oh I can see it now!! I see a wonderful garden in the back brimming full of vegetables and fruit trees laden just waiting to be picked to turn into jams and juice.
I see happy faced gals busily homemaking in and out of the house with peace and love in their hearts.

I see Joyous cooperation and laughter coming from the kitchen with sounds of dishes and silverware being brought out and placed on the dining room  table complete with cloth napkins for dinner.

Is this Heaven? Yes, it will be a slice of it, I believe! It will be a closeup view of how life on earth can be truly lovely between God's women...Miraculous in fact!....and I can hardly wait to behold God's goodness!!

Folks, we are all in a true blue spiritual battle of the mind!! Have you noticed this?? Have you noticed that sometimes you struggle emotionally so much more than you ever did?? That's because satan knows his time is way shorter now than ever and God is stepping back just a little to let him do what is permitted. Unfortunately, that means you and I are going to go through more hassle at times but in Jesus we are still the victors!!

So, when the enemy uses someone close to you to whisper words that hurt or put you on the defense, just know that they are being used of the devil to do it. I know it's hard not to want to knock them over the head at times but you can't do that. All you can do is allow the situation to make you resist the enemy with the Word of Power and the devil has to flee!

Yeah, sometimes you buckle and rehearse the curse in your mind...have you ever done that?? I sure have! We all have because we're human and when we get slapped we want to slap back.

Just today I went to church both Sunday morning and Sunday night. WoW! Two times in one day! Hey, for me that is unusual! So naturally the devil hung out to stir up trouble and he used the Pastor's wife to do it too! He has no class but we all know that, don't we? of course we do!
Now she didn't come up and verbally attack me, no nothing like that. It was the opposite of that in fact. She totally ignored me. She went around to everyone else BUT me and boy didn't I notice the snub. I took it personally too. I mean, her husband preaches about getting people to come to church and here I am but hardly anyone in the church even talked to me. Finally it dawned on me that maybe the reason most of the pews are empty is because they keep running the people off with their snobbery. And that's a shame too because the preacher is a good and anointed speaker and I really like to listen to him alot. But like the old saying goes, Attitude will determine your Altitude!!
I mean how can I feel comfortable bringing others to a church where an attitude like this prevails?? I can't! It wouldn't be fair to a brand new believer to think that all churches are like this...((even when so many are exactly like that, sad to say)).

I am new to a very small town of just a few hundred stuck out in the middle of nowhere in South Florida. It is not a place of choice but rather necessity to deal with some physical issues and spiritual exhaustion. I needed some time to reboot before the next level of life and as tough as it has been, I'm grateful for the ugly little thing. But boy o boy, the gossip groups and good old boys network reign and rule in tiny towns like this along with saying "Yes mame".
You expect the world to be gossips and jerks but to have it in the church right up there in the pulpits and front pews is hard to take sometimes. I am sure it breaks God's heart too because they tie His hands to send people with the 'Us four and no more' mentality.

What's kind of funny about this particular small town is that for such a small population there are over 40 churches! My guess is this is because of not being welcomed or supported, they started a church. In fact, I have thought about planting a church, a house church, too...

I would rather find an established church however. We will see how things unfold....it is anybody's guess at this point whether I stay here and for how long or move on...I seek to do God's Will and He knows it. Please pray for me as I strive to listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit and obey. Amen